you know those times, you just wish you could crawl in a hole… hide away from anyone + everyone…especially your toddlers who are acting like the devil possessed them and took away their cheerios?<\/p>\n
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we live in a country run\u00a0by celebrities and pinterest, all setting the absolute ridiculous expectations for what it means to be beautiful + perfect. \u00a0don’t get me wrong, you will rarely ever see a post from me that is negative in any nature…but i recently had two different encounters of people telling me how happy and perfect my life looked…and i just had to laugh.<\/p>\n
spoiler alert: i’m not<\/em> perfect. my kids aren’t perfect. my marriage isn’t perfect…i am NOT perfect.<\/p>\n but thankfully, i don’t serve a god who sees me as such \u00a0nor am i married to a husband who desires\u00a0that all.<\/p>\n let me be 100% clear about one thing. i am extremely happy<\/em>. i love<\/strong> my life. i love my husband, my girls…i truly am living my dream and don’t take that for granted…but it’s not all cherries and rainbows.<\/p>\n if you’ve been around for any length of time you know our world was turned upside down when zach was diagnosed with testicular cancer<\/a>. and then again when we found out we would never conceive a child together. and then again when my pregnancy was so high-risk<\/a> i almost lost one of my babies.<\/p>\n i can assure you there have been A LOT of tears. heartaches. a lot of not-so-pretty days. then add in two babies? bah…ha. #hotmessexpress over here.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n it’s easy to get caught up in the filters, the perfect blog posts, those happy smiling babies. and yes, for the most part i have little girls who are so hilarious and happy, i absolutely love and adore them…but i’m trying to figure out this mama thing just as much as everyone else.<\/p>\n let’s be real\u00a0here.<\/p>\n i have sat my 14 month old in ‘time out’. yep. it happened. she hit me in the face, 3x. so. i sat her where she couldn’t see me and withdrew my attention from her.<\/p>\n i’m going on almost a week and a half of absolutely terrible sleep, like back to the newborn days… living on coffee and on multiple occasions saying, ‘i don’t think i can mom today.’<\/p>\n just the other day, i was flying solo and attempting the\u00a0grocery store. \u00a0we’re a circus, all the time…which i have come to appreciate, but for the wrong reasons on this particular morning. i was wearing piper while lila sat in the cart. \u00a0 it was complete chaos since i got them out of the car…so bad that i thought multiple times about totally ditching the cart and walking out.<\/p>\n all the while, every other person is stopping us to tell me i have my hands full or try to talk to one of the girls who is either: screaming at the top of her lungs, hitting my face, throwing whatever is possibly within arms reach, swiping items off shelves… the list goes on. it was a nightmare<\/em>.<\/p>\n i have lots of experience in public settings with kiddos displaying significant problem behavior… but for whatever reason, when it was my children, i was absolutely 100% mortified.<\/p>\n we finally made it through + it wasn’t pretty. i was just trying to get the heck out of there as fast as humanly possibly.<\/p>\n you win some, you lose some.<\/p>\n and by win some, i mean you put them down for a nap, pour yourself a glass of wine and try again in two hours.<\/p>\n …and it ain’t always pretty…<\/p>\n question:<\/strong> please tell me i’m not alone–this mama thing is tough!!<\/p>\n xoxo,<\/p>\n lindsey<\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" you know those times, you just wish you could crawl in a hole… hide away from anyone + everyone…especially your toddlers who are acting like the devil possessed them and took away their cheerios? … we live in a country run\u00a0by celebrities and pinterest, all setting the absolute ridiculous expectations for what it means to […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":4047,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[12],"tags":[114],"yoast_head":"\n